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Marsha M. Japhar
aka pixanie
Scorpion gal'
a uni undergraduate.
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Saturday, July 22, 2006
just updated the 'About Me' section of this blog..
Been wondering abt its 'emptiness'..
And been thinking..
It's about time!!
hahah..
there ya go..
even though I'm sure wat I put in there, my close friends should know by now (I'll be mad if you guys don't!!)
aaand..
also managed to put in some more photos in Frenster..
yups..
That aside..
...
...
sorry..
just hate it when my mood swings come..
Thank Goodness my friends won't have to see most of it..
Well..
Coz..
I dunno..
Just dun wanna talk much about anything rite now I guess..
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...
Where's my food? I'm hungry!!
Been wondering abt its 'emptiness'..
And been thinking..
It's about time!!
hahah..
there ya go..
even though I'm sure wat I put in there, my close friends should know by now (I'll be mad if you guys don't!!)
aaand..
also managed to put in some more photos in Frenster..
yups..
That aside..
...
...
sorry..
just hate it when my mood swings come..
Thank Goodness my friends won't have to see most of it..
Well..
Coz..
I dunno..
Just dun wanna talk much about anything rite now I guess..
...
...
Where's my food? I'm hungry!!
7:45 PM
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Monday, July 17, 2006
just 'revamped' my friendster account..
actually..
nah.. I just added more photos and rearrange the whole thing to make it look good.. Haven't had the time to put in captions tho.. But do see!
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Honestly feel that crying once in a while is good..
Was feeling rather down lately..
No I did not cry for no reason..
And no, it was not because of anyone bullying me or such.. and it had nothing to do with my friends
Internal problem.. complicated stuff..
But really..
if the world would only consist of smiles, wouldn't it be boring?
What for did God gave us feelings if not to explore them and be emo once in a while?
I mean.. Tears do clean your eyes ya know.. or so say somewhere I read..
Just reminds me again of how long it has been since I let anyone make me cry..
and..
to tell ya the truth..
I seriously don't let ppl make me cry that easily..
and I rarely (and I mean like never) cries in public..
not like some ppl I know who can fake cry very well (actors/actress included)
but yeah..
you rarely do see a picture of me crying do ya? (family members the exception)
Not that I dun hav feelings or anything (hey I do okay?)...
but it's just weird..
Not a single movie have forced me to shed a tear.. Even a tiny one.. and Passion of the Christ is no exception.. (I know a lot of ppl cried for that one)
All the 'inspiring' presentation I'd seen.. well.. They moved me.. but not to tears..
even KKR sessions..
say...
do I just need to drink more water??? =p
*ehemz!*
that aside.. I just took a pic of myself.. and realised..
how long has my hair been growing!!! Man they are long.. esp the fringe (I'm talking bout the fringe anyways).. yeap.. should go and cut..
...
soon.
actually..
nah.. I just added more photos and rearrange the whole thing to make it look good.. Haven't had the time to put in captions tho.. But do see!
...
Honestly feel that crying once in a while is good..
Was feeling rather down lately..
No I did not cry for no reason..
And no, it was not because of anyone bullying me or such.. and it had nothing to do with my friends
Internal problem.. complicated stuff..
But really..
if the world would only consist of smiles, wouldn't it be boring?
What for did God gave us feelings if not to explore them and be emo once in a while?
I mean.. Tears do clean your eyes ya know.. or so say somewhere I read..
Just reminds me again of how long it has been since I let anyone make me cry..
and..
to tell ya the truth..
I seriously don't let ppl make me cry that easily..
and I rarely (and I mean like never) cries in public..
not like some ppl I know who can fake cry very well (actors/actress included)
but yeah..
you rarely do see a picture of me crying do ya? (family members the exception)
Not that I dun hav feelings or anything (hey I do okay?)...
but it's just weird..
Not a single movie have forced me to shed a tear.. Even a tiny one.. and Passion of the Christ is no exception.. (I know a lot of ppl cried for that one)
All the 'inspiring' presentation I'd seen.. well.. They moved me.. but not to tears..
even KKR sessions..
say...
do I just need to drink more water??? =p
*ehemz!*
that aside.. I just took a pic of myself.. and realised..
how long has my hair been growing!!! Man they are long.. esp the fringe (I'm talking bout the fringe anyways).. yeap.. should go and cut.....
soon.
8:32 PM
Wednesday, July 12, 2006
just had to blog this in...
was in the mood for cosplays and such.. coz I got reminded again that I actually missed this year's anime cosfest last Sunday at Pasir Ris.. never been to an actual one before.. but..
Serached for some great cosplays around.. and among the best I found this: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lvtOzyUvyIU
please see.. wonderful people cosplaying (and realistically real too!)
was in the mood for cosplays and such.. coz I got reminded again that I actually missed this year's anime cosfest last Sunday at Pasir Ris.. never been to an actual one before.. but..
Serached for some great cosplays around.. and among the best I found this: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lvtOzyUvyIU
please see.. wonderful people cosplaying (and realistically real too!)
11:36 PM
Tuesday, July 04, 2006
MAn... It's really becoming this weird/bad habit of mine.. blogging after good baths at night.. hahah.. too bad I can't help it! It just feels nice.. I dunno why..
Lol...
(today is gonna be a very long post btw.. so bear with me)
First day of school (back again) and so many things happened already.. Aside from the fact that I have to go to the OCIP meeting at 5.45pm (that's a bit after our chem pract).. which ends at roughly 7pm.. (making me kinda tired..) there's also our class (me included) getting extra PW lesson as a slot on mondays so that we end on 5.10pm instead of 4.10pm so yeah.. literally adding that extra slot in(CRAZY RITE?!?!!!!! ITS SUCH A DRAGGG~~~~~~~!!)).. And also we got back some of our papers... AAhh!! this is too complicated!!
Lemme put it into a nice chronological order..
First thing first, me and the usual group of us were late to go to the MAths tutorials due to: Ying getting the GP stuff as the GP rep.. Me getting the maths notes from my locker.. the rest tagging along hahah.. Yup but unfortunately, we had this crazy substitute teacher coz Ms Ang is on MC!! Aaaaa!! This is what happened:
(just when we were about to go in the classroom, 8:15am --somewhat)
the teach(er): You! Get out!
(We backed out)
the teach: Close the door!
(Ying, being closest to the door, appear to me as somewhat slamming the door) --powerr..
(greeting begins)
(we wait outside)
(the teach opens door)
the teach: why are all of y'all late?
Ying: (went to give her explenation)
the teach: ok she can go in. the rest?
Me: err... (a bit stunned cum speechless)
the rest: .......silence~
the teach: you (refering to Ying) can go in but the rest cannot.
Ying: they were with me
the teach: I think we only have a GP Rep, not REPS..
(at this stage.. both parties are pissed)
Ying: (with a pissed tone) well, they are my friends so we go together!
(eventually) the teach: LEAVE!!
us: Fine~..
then we went M1-1.. hahah!!! actually its better for us also, coz the rest of the class all seem to dislike this moody teach.. hahah.. all spooky stuff was recounted such as all the stares that he gives and all the scoldings the class gets..etc.. poor them..
Lol.. second period.. no teacher.. interestingly enuf.. thenn.. civics was crammy inside the hall swkueezed in with the j2s.. then.. GP.. RESULTS!! Yay! hhahaha..
Oh drats..
I failed my easssay... 24/50
wait..
contents I passed at 15/30
for language I exceeded borderline at 14/20...
So WHY THE HELL WOULD I GET 24?!?!
Hahah.. I think the teachers want to get me failing? heheh.. he changed it to 29 afterwards lah.. which means I PASSED!! Whoopee!!! (not bad... and I would've thought I failed)
Chem also.. I nearly got deceived those marks.. I thot I got 24/50 again for the whole thing.. but realised it was only the structured qns part.. but in the end.. I passed! Not as good.. but efforts were clearly reflected as the results.. that's what I feel la.. and I passed!! Whee~!!!!!!
So yeah.. but the day doesn't end just that.. there's OCIP meeting I mentioned.. and.. tmr gonna be lonngg...
...
...
...
SHIT!!!!!!!!!
tmr got OCS visit!!!
And exactly tmr is my father's b-day!!!!
Oh nO!!!!
(hmm.. lets see if i can get early leave..)
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.
.
dang!
Thurs change into Mon's timetable.. which is gonna be a drag.. dang..
Friday.. lets not think too far away...
anyways..
I forgot what I want to say..
hahahah..
coz while I was typing.. my bro came in and somehow I slept and he took over the com.. hhahah..
so I'm typing now..
dunno what to say..
Oh yeah..
the faggot..
German Italy 0-0
and Italy won at extra time..
Lol.. Should I have bet on it? (I was rooting for Italy btw)
but my bet would be 1-1 and they went on to penalty.. hahah...
too bad...
Damn I gotta go school
Touch on this later then...
Lol...
(today is gonna be a very long post btw.. so bear with me)
First day of school (back again) and so many things happened already.. Aside from the fact that I have to go to the OCIP meeting at 5.45pm (that's a bit after our chem pract).. which ends at roughly 7pm.. (making me kinda tired..) there's also our class (me included) getting extra PW lesson as a slot on mondays so that we end on 5.10pm instead of 4.10pm so yeah.. literally adding that extra slot in(CRAZY RITE?!?!!!!! ITS SUCH A DRAGGG~~~~~~~!!)).. And also we got back some of our papers... AAhh!! this is too complicated!!
Lemme put it into a nice chronological order..
First thing first, me and the usual group of us were late to go to the MAths tutorials due to: Ying getting the GP stuff as the GP rep.. Me getting the maths notes from my locker.. the rest tagging along hahah.. Yup but unfortunately, we had this crazy substitute teacher coz Ms Ang is on MC!! Aaaaa!! This is what happened:
(just when we were about to go in the classroom, 8:15am --somewhat)
the teach(er): You! Get out!
(We backed out)
the teach: Close the door!
(Ying, being closest to the door, appear to me as somewhat slamming the door) --powerr..
(greeting begins)
(we wait outside)
(the teach opens door)
the teach: why are all of y'all late?
Ying: (went to give her explenation)
the teach: ok she can go in. the rest?
Me: err... (a bit stunned cum speechless)
the rest: .......silence~
the teach: you (refering to Ying) can go in but the rest cannot.
Ying: they were with me
the teach: I think we only have a GP Rep, not REPS..
(at this stage.. both parties are pissed)
Ying: (with a pissed tone) well, they are my friends so we go together!
(eventually) the teach: LEAVE!!
us: Fine~..
then we went M1-1.. hahah!!! actually its better for us also, coz the rest of the class all seem to dislike this moody teach.. hahah.. all spooky stuff was recounted such as all the stares that he gives and all the scoldings the class gets..etc.. poor them..
Lol.. second period.. no teacher.. interestingly enuf.. thenn.. civics was crammy inside the hall swkueezed in with the j2s.. then.. GP.. RESULTS!! Yay! hhahaha..
Oh drats..
I failed my easssay... 24/50
wait..
contents I passed at 15/30
for language I exceeded borderline at 14/20...
So WHY THE HELL WOULD I GET 24?!?!
Hahah.. I think the teachers want to get me failing? heheh.. he changed it to 29 afterwards lah.. which means I PASSED!! Whoopee!!! (not bad... and I would've thought I failed)
Chem also.. I nearly got deceived those marks.. I thot I got 24/50 again for the whole thing.. but realised it was only the structured qns part.. but in the end.. I passed! Not as good.. but efforts were clearly reflected as the results.. that's what I feel la.. and I passed!! Whee~!!!!!!
So yeah.. but the day doesn't end just that.. there's OCIP meeting I mentioned.. and.. tmr gonna be lonngg...
...
...
...
SHIT!!!!!!!!!
tmr got OCS visit!!!
And exactly tmr is my father's b-day!!!!
Oh nO!!!!
(hmm.. lets see if i can get early leave..)
.
.
.
dang!
Thurs change into Mon's timetable.. which is gonna be a drag.. dang..
Friday.. lets not think too far away...
anyways..
I forgot what I want to say..
hahahah..
coz while I was typing.. my bro came in and somehow I slept and he took over the com.. hhahah..
so I'm typing now..
dunno what to say..
Oh yeah..
the faggot..
German Italy 0-0
and Italy won at extra time..
Lol.. Should I have bet on it? (I was rooting for Italy btw)
but my bet would be 1-1 and they went on to penalty.. hahah...
too bad...
Damn I gotta go school
Touch on this later then...
11:37 PM
Sunday, July 02, 2006
Such a crazy, crazy life...
I can't help but think that a brother, esp. my own brother, can bring such disturbance, misery, pain (in the neck), craziness, yet even joy of being able to have a brother to bully, to shop with (it would have been better if I had a sis), to share his things (sometimes I get to even use it before him -- esp his comics) and just have a brother that I know cares for me and are able to protect me. Yet I realised what a pain in the neck I had been to him most of the times, even tho he's all I got in this world that is closest to me in the family..
Now that he is studying overseas.. it is true that I have all the freedom to myself.. It is true that nobody comes to my room every minute just to disturb me.. I mean, I did go shopping with my friends more often than with him (like what, a pathetic 2 times?).. But to not having a brother.. means that I would not have been the way I am.. And life would certainly been more straight if not more boring..
So much had happened since the last time I made my entry to this blog... 2 nights in a row he was disturbing me at such late night timings.. the first one was just after my last post, him coming past midnight to barge me up on how to cook a teriyaki chicken rice (I mean, how the hell would I know? There's no instruction on the box!).. Then afterwards he would disturbs he when I am using msn and typed in all nonsense to my friends.. (We fight with the keyboard later on) Then during the day, when he's not with his friends, he's there to shop with me (we went round Singapore to use up our parent's money.. hehehz..) or just be there in my room when I'm using the com.. then he would help me when we are 'debating' with our parents (I would lost, still, but..) Maybe these things seems normal when you have an older brother.. But such crazy things wouldn't have happened to me if I were to have a sister, or even nobody at all..
In short, I feel blessed to have a brother.. Despite all his gay actions and his bullying acts.. he is still my brother.. Annoying or not, he is still my brother.. Even though he is damn skinny, he is my brother.. Oh and did I mention about his face? Yeah, he is that brother of mine.. Whatever he is, I'm still glad that he gets to be corrupted about how life goes the way it was before I did.. (so that he can share his so-called 'wisdom' with me.. even tho it may not be much) haha..
Before I gtg for church.. let me just hame my last tribute to him.. (geez I made it sounds like he's a goner didn't I? whoops)
Here's a pic:
So to my dear brother, Alvin, I hope you get to read this post and finally realise that your sis actually remembers you and puts you into her blog and tell whoever's reading her blog about you.. (wow.. I'm even more amazed that she did actually...)
I can't help but think that a brother, esp. my own brother, can bring such disturbance, misery, pain (in the neck), craziness, yet even joy of being able to have a brother to bully, to shop with (it would have been better if I had a sis), to share his things (sometimes I get to even use it before him -- esp his comics) and just have a brother that I know cares for me and are able to protect me. Yet I realised what a pain in the neck I had been to him most of the times, even tho he's all I got in this world that is closest to me in the family..
Now that he is studying overseas.. it is true that I have all the freedom to myself.. It is true that nobody comes to my room every minute just to disturb me.. I mean, I did go shopping with my friends more often than with him (like what, a pathetic 2 times?).. But to not having a brother.. means that I would not have been the way I am.. And life would certainly been more straight if not more boring..
So much had happened since the last time I made my entry to this blog... 2 nights in a row he was disturbing me at such late night timings.. the first one was just after my last post, him coming past midnight to barge me up on how to cook a teriyaki chicken rice (I mean, how the hell would I know? There's no instruction on the box!).. Then afterwards he would disturbs he when I am using msn and typed in all nonsense to my friends.. (We fight with the keyboard later on) Then during the day, when he's not with his friends, he's there to shop with me (we went round Singapore to use up our parent's money.. hehehz..) or just be there in my room when I'm using the com.. then he would help me when we are 'debating' with our parents (I would lost, still, but..) Maybe these things seems normal when you have an older brother.. But such crazy things wouldn't have happened to me if I were to have a sister, or even nobody at all..
In short, I feel blessed to have a brother.. Despite all his gay actions and his bullying acts.. he is still my brother.. Annoying or not, he is still my brother.. Even though he is damn skinny, he is my brother.. Oh and did I mention about his face? Yeah, he is that brother of mine.. Whatever he is, I'm still glad that he gets to be corrupted about how life goes the way it was before I did.. (so that he can share his so-called 'wisdom' with me.. even tho it may not be much) haha..
Before I gtg for church.. let me just hame my last tribute to him.. (geez I made it sounds like he's a goner didn't I? whoops)
Here's a pic:
So to my dear brother, Alvin, I hope you get to read this post and finally realise that your sis actually remembers you and puts you into her blog and tell whoever's reading her blog about you.. (wow.. I'm even more amazed that she did actually...)
12:50 PM